I started this blog with the intention to be anonymous.
Being anonymous allows me to write freely, showing-off my words and photos freely, not worrying about being judged, etc. I even switched off the visitor’s comment. No one can have a say in this blog, as this blog is my own space of free speech. People can hate me reading my words but too bad, this blog is my place. I won’t give them a chance to comment. I don’t have to care about readers who disagree with me.
Somehow along the way I violated my own principle for moment of vanity and I linked this blog to my facebook account. There are people that I care about. I care about how they judged me. I care about how I am being seen by the people that matter to me. It become no longer fun to show and update this blog for I know my words, thoughts and writing styles can be too blunt and raw to be desirable.
Same thing for FB. My friend list had bloated with so many so-so friends, colleagues and friends that matter that there is no longer fun to write about many issues in the posts. For every post I need to stop and think before I post. It has unconsciously become a tiring process of maintaining an online identity or, in a more accurate word, image. What makes it worst is my recent outburst of nostalgia posts.
Very embarrassing, but well, I asked for it. Hope I get back to normal soon.
I am cutting the link between my FB account and this blog. I still can write my opinions, but not on FB. Bye bye FB. I am removing my website info from FB too. A while later, nobody will remember I ever have a blog. This blog can remain as the outlet of my thoughts.
May be back to handwriting journal, but blog somehow is more fun with my many photos.
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update: errr but just realised, I put my Mt Kinabalu blog at chwh and all the photo in FB with chwh domain names needed to be removed.
How to go back to anonymous at cool head warm heart now?
Got to start a new life journal blog now.